Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Is it normal to fear for my life whenever I think I offended someone important in my life?
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Friday, November 5, 2010
Lol!
Did you really think I'd accept that half-assed apology of yours? After all you've done to me and the people around you, you really think something so devoid of sincerity could actually make up for your actions?
HAHA!
I don't know if you're just saying that out of goodwill or what, but do rest assured that you have played a big role in my life. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to encounter people of your kind. The insensitive, unreliable, self-centered, money-minded, short tempered piece of shit that you are really opened my eyes to who I should really be considering my friend. HAHA.
Goodbye, loser.
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Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Pitstop
It's been one hell of a roller-coaster ride these past few weeks. With the 'o' levels and all. I haven't really had the time to just sit down, rest my head, and just think about what i'm gonna be doing after i leave secondary school. But everytime i actually get around to think about what life would be after i leave st gabs, i get slapped with the inherent fear and possibility that i may not actually achieve my goals at the end of my secondary education journey.
I can't even IMAGINE myself in a poly. I don't have enough clothes to wear so that it won't seem like i'm some really poor kid with not enough cash to buy new clothes, i don't really think i can adapt to the whole 'project work' kind of thing and fully accept it as an assessable component of my education, and i feel rather uncomfortable being the only person in my immediate family to ever enroll in a polytechnic.
Sure it's all probably just peer/family/self-inflicted pressure, but it's also a personal goal and mindset that's been with me since forever. Ever since primary school, i always thought that education was as such - nursery > kindergarten > primary > secondary > JC > Uni. But never did i realize that there are many other routes that are available to achieve success in life.
My journey through life thus far has shown me that you don't really need that masters degree or PHD to be happy and successful. All you need is a strong sense of perseverance and strong willpower to be able to overcome any obstacles that stand in your way. People from the ITE are able to be selected for a HARVARD internship. We're talking about someone from the supposed 'lower end' of the education standards spectrum, being selected for such a prestigious program that only the smartest and most recognized people in Singapore can only DREAM about. This shows that you don't need to come from Raffles Institution on HCI to achieve great success in life. This guy didn't work hard in secondary school because he claims that he didnt know what he was studying for, but he found a great interest in science when he entered ITE and since then, he has been working hard for it. I guess you can say it's a passion for science that bloomed a little too late in his life. But hey, he's lucky. An opportunity presented itself at the right moment and he got lucky.
But other factors apart from luck got him this amazing, once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. He has a strong passion and it is this fiery passion that drives him forward.
I can only dream to have half of his fighting spirit and passion to learn and study. But i intend to make up what i lack with effort. And we all know effort usually requires some sacrifices. Damn i think this makes up what i didn't do for lent. HAHA. I had to sacrifice spending more time with my friends cos, well, it's what really really really distracts me.
It's not that their all play and no work. They're all working hard, well most of them, but the ones that i'm closer with just distract me even with their presence. I tend to want to talk to them and crack silly jokes about how certain vice principals should be fired etc etc.
gahhh i should be sleeping now. I have to once again dunk my head under the strangling quicksand of education. Sigh. Well at least i blogged a relatively long one. It's been a while since i typed something to this magnitude anyways. Lol.
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Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Thanks. For being the exact type of people I'm trying to avoid.
No really, I am filled with nothing but gratitude towards your supposed 'soft' approach with your opening statement that - well honestly - bears no significant moral cushioning to those crushing words that followed.
And it doesn't really help when you have people to agree with you.
Gaaaaahhhh displeasure.
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